“Why?” Answer: 1. It doesn’t matter.
Try asking, “what, where, how, who can help me change and be the person I am meant to be.” Choose a path, take it. If you get the results you are seeking, stay on the pathway. If you don’t like the results, choose a different path.
Continue to pay attention to being the person you want to be. Keep asking “how do I continue?”
If a specific method has worked for others, it may work for you. Students who attend class and do the homework, often pass the course. People who do a little research about food and exercise and eat fewer calories than they burn up usually lose weight. And addicts (including alcoholics) who embrace 12 step groups, read the books and work the steps, have a good chance of recovering from addiction.
One catch is that as spiritual beings, we must include some spiritual component to all, yes all, aspects of our lives. Compartmentalizing does not work. Excluding spirituality from one segment of our life, like work, or drinking or overeating just takes energy and confuses us. If God is God, then He can help with every aspect of our lives.